Are you having any more?
Oh How much I hate this question. Almost as much as I hate the “How many children do you have?” question.
For some reason if you have a child between 1 and 2 years old people ask this all the time. To answer this question its a BIG FAT NO. We are not going to have anymore babies. Problem is people can’t take no for an answer. I get “Ah why not you make such cute kids”. Yes but they are not always healthy! The risks of loosing another child are too great for us to consider going down that road again.
I always wanted 3 kids. I will always dream of having 5 people at the Dinner table. When we go to restaurants and they ask how many, though I speak the number 4 there are really 5 of us.
In my heart I am the Mother of 3 children. My heart Aches for Amanda everyday. My arms don’t get to hold her. My eyes don’t get to see her. However I dream of her, of what kind of baby and toddler she would have been. I also dream of what kind of person she would have grown up to be.
Tony and I have discussed adoption and it comes up every now and then. Nothing serious yet and won’t be until Allison is a bit older. I think Tony is content with our family as it is. I would like to adopt but still not sure if its a need to fill that spot at the Dinner table. Or the belief that I have enough to give another child.
Whatever the out come of the adoption discussion I will not be having anymore babies. If when we adopt it will be a slightly older child between ages 3-5 (why we want to wait until Allie is older).
I think this was my mini vent preparing for the many times I will be asked this question over the next few months with the upcoming holidays.
Kim