Happy Birthday
Nine years ago today I experienced one of the most amazing experiences of my life. I held an angel in my arms and placed her in the waiting hands of God. If you asked everyone in the hospital room what they experienced? The answers would all be a little different. They would likely included amazing, surreal, sad heartbreaking. If you ask me to describe the time we spent with Amanda my answer is a jumbled mess, highlighted by the fact this is the 5th version of this post.
I talk a lot about how we miss her and the challenges of the grieving process of loosing a child. Today I want to talk about the morning we meet Amanda. After medically assessing her condition the doctors brought her to us to hold and care for her as long as we could. Several friends were present as well as our Pastor at the time. We did all the things we wanted dressed her, took pictures, we got hand prints and foot prints a lock of her hair. All the stuff you do with a healthy infant we just had to do it all then we didn’t have the luxury of time. Honestly as hard as the last few months of the pregnancy were we were blessed with the ability to prepare so the morning of her birth everything was in place. This allowed me to be focused on her with all of my attention even though I know lots of stuff was going on around me.
Gods presence filled my hospital room that morning. I had never felt anything like that before or since. When I looked upon the face of my newborn daughter I saw the face of god.
Happy Birthday to my Baby Girl that would have been 9 years old today!
Kim