Amanda’s Story

Tonight I was talking to a friend who has a son entering Kindergarten this year.   We were talking about School Supplies and clothes.  Then something I was apparently not preparped for smacked me in the face.  Amanda would be entering Kindergarten this year.  She would be five entering school.  I felt physically ill.  Tightness in my chest,  a knot in my stomach.  As the tears threaten to come, I didn’t know how to make it stop.  I havent’ felt this physically upset in a long time.  Why and how did this blindside me?   I knew it was comming.  Back in the spring I thought about it.   How did I not prepare myself for it?  Busy getting the kids ready for their big day’s missing the fact that this was going to be  a difficult milestone.  I thought the first year had all the really hard firsts.  I guess not!